Crepe and Penn - the conversations girls have at midnight
Updated: Apr 8
Neha Maqsood shows what a midnight conversation appears like between two brown girls living in the UK who muse over topics like race, immigration, love, politics and the feeling of being internally displaced.
i asked her did you hear about the monsoon rains killing 15 in Pakistan would you rather become a Wall Street banker or retain your sensibility why does our depression metastasize within everything we touch like we’re Ozymandias except without all the gold why can’t i be fluently bilingual without compromising on my native language why is our fluency in the colonizers language an indicator of our worth how do we stop feeling ‘lesser than’ the white people at university do you know that white people are surprised we exist but the diaspora knows we do do you think Allah will forgive me for my indecency or is jahannum* my next destination speaking about going to hell, how do i look my conservative mothers in the eyes and tell her that i’m not her little girl anymore how do I tell daddy that medicine is his career goal and not mine how many times do I reiterate to aunties that I’m not a child producing factory but would much rather retreat to the mountains & dissolve lakes into diamonds do you think trumps’ america is better or worse than johnsons’ england i ask her if these anxious thoughts are recurring does she know the world bailed on us?
The original home (Crepe and Penn) for this poetry can be found here -